Saturday, July 12, 2008
just came back from caregroup and i really enjoyed it alot. and the best part was that they celebrated my birthday. sometimes God, i am really amazed at the things that you want to tell me. for you are greater than my heart and know all things Lord and you really send people to me at the right time to tell me the right things.

feeling condemned that i do not feel guilty of the things that i do, i really wanted God to show me what should i do. but the love that was poured on me by my caregroup showed me a glimpse of His love once again. even if i feel that God is very distant away from me, He can send people around me to show me that He truly cares. and it just reminds me of who I am in Christ, to stop doing the things that i shouldn't be doing and start living a life full of His glory. i should really focus on what God wants me to do and just enjoy this season that He has prepared for me. i am so glad that God has put me into this caregroup for a purpose. i am so glad to be in selene's caregroup. i thank God for every person that is placed in this family of Christ. for in the house of the Lord, we will find comfort and strength to walk this journey with Him, the one who gave up His life for us.

today, God also spoke to me. Selene asked me again whether my yes was yes and no was no. i think she asked me a million times. then i said i don't know again. right then, God spoke to me, 'because you say you don't know that is why your yes is not yes and no is not no'. then i thought about it. i guess what He was trying to show me that if only i step forward and just proclaim that my yes is yes and my no is no, it will be. even if it is not now, it will be. that's faith to believe. so from today onwards, my yes is yes and no is no in Jesus name! and the next time selene asks me, that will be my answer because i will be 101% totally free from bondage.

alright, can't wait to meet the girls later in the evening to eat at werner's oven!